take the plunge

study population in gardens burgeoning..
hard finding a non smoky and warm spot!
excessive eating = indigestion, and
nauseaus (sp?) stomach doesnt go well with swinging the night away
but it was all very :)

studying.

ugh.

omg discovery of studious boiz very worrying
unstrike studying!

studying.

there!


..but maybe its not that.

we keep saying forever.


I dig my toes into the sand.
The ocean looks like a thousand diamonds strewn across a blue blanket.
I lean against the wind, pretend that i am weightless and in this moment i am happy.

I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here.

I lay my head onto the sand.
The sky resembles a backlit canopy with holes punched in it.
I'm counting ufo's.
I signal them with my lighter
and in this moment i am happy, happy.

The world's a roller coaster and I am not strapped in.
Maybe I should hold with care, but my hands are busy in the air.


HUANG WEITING you erpipi i miss you!!

never had a little lamb, little lamb, little lamb

HAHA. today was damn funny +UNPRODUCTIVE
but quite :) caught up with psycho galz. finally ripping plastic cover off her zen..haha

my poor poddie's sick :(
worsening critical condition!
sigh.

was so fucking pissed just now,
comp is a stupid screwed up asshole!!
treating me like this at the wee hours in the morning!
cant believe i spent FIVE hours
doing gp proj and pw.
finally off to sleep now.


sigh.

-sings to myself. you're in the middle it'll up the ride..

sigh.
some people..
disappointing.


excessive sighs.

oh, and miss huang weiting rply my mail! miss you.

speechless >>

so,
what ive wanted to say is that..
maybe i got it wrong buttttt
the point is there is more to what you think the situation is like
but i dont know what / how to say it so........
yea.

haha.

today was quite an angsty day filled with pent up frustrations!
BUT it'll be okayy -singsong tone (whips out handkerchief and starts singing and dancing to j.tsai ._. -looks at sammiekins.)
..i hope

-


TINGS, I MISS AND <3 YOU SO!!!!!!! where art thou, my tinkerbelle!?! sorry about sunday btw.. :( -you are my centrestage. (ahem, jap surname boy?) haha and i need to tell you about disappearing and fading dinohair. sigh. stressed about upcoming promos but not doing anything much about it still :( how is it in L.A? and and CHECK YOUR MAIL! wish i could barge into your room again when im having a bad day or feel like giving you a surprise.. :(

my own perfect drama,
my own scripted page

the cough bug (flu bug, cough bug??) is definitely in the air..especially when a group of 5 sick gluttons who are constantly spreading their germs to each other. circular pattern thats never ending ._.

throat was hurting badly, and eyes grew red and bloodshot!
overly heaty, i suppose.
and jiang HAD to buy curly fries at mac's ._.
btw i didnt knw about mac's new innovation (to remain the dominating firm in the contestable market, no less. okay attempt to apply econ skills) till today!

and randomly, i love m&m's peanut butter! loyally patronising fruit drink stall in school to buy it. haha jiang's imported peaches were VERY good too! - awed exchange with sam. haha


got lotsa work to do! but still being completely slothy :((((
aye, makes me wonder why A Certain Person happily skipped school for almost an entire week..sick? bad bad haircut? the result of all these dont seem to bear any relation..

oh oh,
ystd ws quite funny..jumping up and down and pretending to run, all for the sake of trying out new functions in my phone and nette's digi cam. and the si ma guang + fei fei sents us into peals or laughter..

alrightyy dozing off in front of the comp alr..the medicine is taking drowsy effect on me..nightyy! :)


and and tings i miss you too!!! rplied your mail alr. fast and furious haha. bet youre in dreamland now! <3


this is a very random entry, but too sleepy for anything..

scent of sweetness

sudden craving for late mornings + coffeebean breakfast + random walking + borders + evening talks + swinging in the wind and the list goes on ..
too bad, stuck in school
and also, the ingredients are missing.

phone looks increasingly lovable,
at least.
though sadly spore pok-ly didnt have it in white.
:((
shall get over it..

so now im home superbly early
the shades are still drawn, no one's at home! gasp.
dont intend to draw them.
shall be contented with strawberry + oc reruns.


did i mention everything's missing?

if im caught in the middle,
i know it will be
the end of me.


so there i was, in the mood to indulge, spending an hour typing ths completely random but at the same time relevant mail to tinks when i decided to attach photos but somehow i cancelled the process AND the whole thing just poof, disappeared! thanks ah. the screen now reads New Message. oh my goodness gracious me. i was just staring at the screen in disbelief till i decided to rant. hotmail, why are you doing this to me!!?!?!!? tell me why~

tinks if youre reading this, im so hopping mad!! sorry, shall try to re-mail you again >:( so much nonsense to tell you. miss miss miss you.



:(:

\read it left or right ward.

so anyway.
today i forgot to bring pinkie b.
forebodes a baddd day
BUT
2.4 was (more than) pretty aight :D :D
thanks jiang!
we met up with ree
were happily chatting away over lunch
and shopped a bit
but all of a sudden
were just unanimously overtaken by weariness..
nvm, meet up soon again!
imy, peasant aj.
hahah.


weary and wary is right.

cant believe hotmail's down.

And our flares go unnoticed.
Dimminished, faded just as soon as they are fired.

We are, we are, intrigued. We are, we are, invisible.

Oh, how we've shouted, how we've screamed, take notice, take interest, take me with you.


So denied
So I lied
Are you the now or never kind
In a day
And a day love
I'm gonna be gone for good again

Here's a toast
To all thoose who hear me all too well

Here's to the nights
We felt alive
Here's to the tears
You knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon

Put your name
On the line
Along with place and time
Wanna stay
Not to go
I wanna ditch the logical



completely worn out today!
school was a waste of time.
hours of dazed UNentertainment in the sweltering heat -.-
till it rained and i could watch the pitter and patter, that is.
:)


you kick up the leaves
and the magic is gone


goodness me,
last night there very disturbing gathering going on at the field near my place..
sounded like Patricia Mok screaming her lungs out
prolly a mini Nat Day celebration
sweet, but maybe they shldnt be shrieking away like that all the time :|


you tell me your blue sky's faded to grey


happy 40th independence, Singapore :)
my little country that i constantly whine about but secretly feel loyal to..


happy indepedence to me too, all over again..
but i know we wont be left alone ; theres you and me!
and i think i know what its gonna be like, once again,
and im sorry for allowing the green J to consume me inside out and all the nonsense
but yknw i will miss and love you!
big hug please
thanks for making it easier
:))


(resizing = weird grainy and squarey faces)




you said you need a blue sky holiday


I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up...

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess



HAH. apparently the school's principal mailed everyones parents..huge commotion :|
mummy was rather amused (she recieved sms since i didnt report her email..not like she checks her mail anyway) and the parents were rather appalled by my ugly 'henna' at the back of my knee joint .. haha its a purple blue bruise obtained from what, i have yet been able to recall, but its prolly from floorball. hope it goes away soon! dont want sticky band aids!



coffee beaned at gardens (maju) with charm, sam and their friend shena (sp?)
not pdtive at all! haha
was jst feeling sleepy then awakened by .. jolting news.
mhrm.
went to town to mt jiang
and and finally bought the bag ive been searching for
:D :D

purple crumpler was quite a mistake..
giving me a neckache and headache ._.

you sing a sad song just to turn it around.


as you can tell, im just rambling.


you say what you like,
and how does it feel,
one more time.

rightt..
off, got truckloads of work to do.

purple poodle doodle.

had tuition then met steph..
random tired day.
shopping was unproductive (do nice bags actually exist?? im looking at all the bags i own and -wrinkles nose. theres only word to describe them : GROSS. queer taste i had + acted on impulse = complete waste of money + living in blissful ignorance that i ought to be abashed of.), as was tuition.
starving like a marykate.
(no offence, i actually do like her. just randomly thought of the similie.)


far east has transformed into a nightmare zone after not patronising the area for quite sometime..
freaky deaky.


was still wondering about certain enigmatic characters that i know of when it suddenly led to me to another train of thought .. why on earth do i bother trying to figure these people out when i myself ..?! nonsense.

had a nice talk on msn ystd :)
and yes,
when you end up lost,
the odds are, you lost yourself,
not your environment, not your friends, not changes.
hrm.


feel like buying some nice smelling shampoo
will prolly remind me of tings and her passion fruit,
nights of sleepover and
morning after.
:)


trying to get it all back.
miss lots of people..!


tutoring tmrw. yucks.
why isnt national day on a sunday?!

american hi fi ; another perfect day

dashboard conf;
several ways to die trying


IM COMPLETELY TRAUMATISED BY MY OWN DISTURBING BEHAVIOUR!!
last week i stupidly attempted to cut my own fringe and and
the outcome is horrible..!
now i look like a pri sch kid!!!!!
ahh! after years of trying to look less kiddy,
my itchy fingers snipped it all awayyy!
great.
hrmpf.
so please do not laugh if i look shockingly weird..
im upset enough alr..
:((((


+ embarassing bimbotic encounters..
i.e shouting hi to yiqin but it turned out sounding more like a shriek and apparently my whole class heard, looking at me in appall

and fell over my own feet out of the blue while stoning because i was subconsciously twisting my ankle a little too much (habit)

and and tumbling about in a jerky double decker bus while attempting to descend the stairs..and practically the entire upper deck was my sch people, privy to charm + my weird noises..


-.-"


and tdy elleteejay was being SO EXTREMELY NICE!
-rolls eyes.
inner battle + complete fear = evasion
except that we can evade no longer..
tsk, highly annoyed.


++ undelivered, empty promises..


hrm.
ws a bad+boring day..
till..floorball!! fun!!
though we were all complete amateurs
looking very retarded, whacking at the ball in any way we want to (ok maybe it ws just me)
but! it was highly enthralling and exciting!
:D :D
lost the last match cos the ball erm went up my shorts from below, somehow..and was too -raises eyebrows- to react!
oh well.
still, i like! :)


//EDIT
jst found out smth (again)
and im really just wondering (like every other day)
why does it seem like people are interested in making as many friends as possible, socialising at the utmost, pretending to like you when they dont really do, judging you by how you look like, not bothering / wanting at all to really know you but beaming at you and forging a friendship with you when they have secret thoughts that you dont know about.

labelling you as a bimbo, for example, just because you flail and scream about a lot (NOT LIKE I CAN HELP IT OKAY and stop pretending its only a joke. not gonna believe anything anyone says anymore.)
cant help it, being born without a pretty face or whatever.

completely disgusted and disturbed by all these people around me.

its really freaky how you dont know about all the secret thoughts people are habouring, your untold stories suddenly leaking out to the rest of the world flippantly.
if theres any good out of it,
its to learn never to believe in people easily.
they just let you down overnight.
to think i stood up for people i thought i knew, i thought were my friends.
hello?!?!??!
is this what the world is like?
i know it is, but the superficiality seems exceedingly extreme at my side of the world..
overwhelming disappointment in people i realise i dont even know / dont even know me.
oscillating from anger to sadness to disgust.
all the bad vibes
just keep evolving.